The greatest movie of all time! Well….next to Arthur. And Hoosiers.
There is a line in the movie when two guys are sword fighting and one of them is losing but smiling and the winning guy says, “Why are you smiling?” And the losing guy says, “I know something you don’t know…I am not left handed!”
Well, I know something you don’t know. And I pray to God you never know it.
Death is a consideration. And it’s a consideration that most people have in the “back” of their minds. They know it’s inevitable, yet they live as if it’s not. The famous song by Tim McGraw…Live Like You Were Dyin’.
It’s about a guy who got the news he was dyin so he finally started livin’.
I’m not sure that’s possible on a normal basis. I mean, most of us have to work, raise our kids, show up for others. We can’t “live like we were dyin'”. Yet…we are dyin’. I don’t know, but I’ve been thinking about it a lot.
Death to me is not a consideration.
Death to me is a confrontation. Today the pain was so high…I thought for sure the artery was going to burst today. But the reality is…I know something you don’t know…and that is…EVERY day I wonder if today’s the day.
Whenever someone wants me to plan something way in advance, I find myself having a hard time doing it. It’s just difficult to get focused and motivated to do it. It’s weird, but it’s just hard. When I have some free time or I go on vacation I want to make the MOST out of every minute. To the point where I will waste time because I don’t do something for fear of it wasting time. Time is not something I’m good at wasting.
I’m not even sure it’s fear of death honestly. It’s just sort of a daily realization and thought pattern that the pain causes…today could be the day. It’s a lonely mentality for sure. I mean, who thinks about that stuff? Terminally ill (aren’t we all), people in a war.
I know something you don’t know (death feels near) and I pray to God you never know it.
But I wouldn’t mind if someone asked me….”what’s it like?”
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