I can’t imagine. How has Casey done it? How did the blind man do it? How does this glorify God? Casey has made peace with it. He believes God didn’t make a mistake.
If anything, it feels the opposite.
Casey and I talked about drive. I talked about always feeling like I needed to prove my worth, always needed to be better so that I wasn’t a burden. He understood that. He said when he was on tour he wanted to win with his leg the way it was. To show the fully-abled that he could do it. He said he still feels that way when he plays.
I get that. When I played that guy the other day in golf and he was 27 and on the mini-tour, I played within a shot of him. I found great pleasure in the fact that he looked at me as an old man with a heart problem (I had an episode on the course) who had nearly beaten him. I was driven and focused. I admit I’m too competitive. I even And now I think I know why.
I always felt “less than” because of my heart so I needed to be “better than” to make up for the burden I was to others.
I don’t know how to glorify God with this. Paul asked for his to be removed. He didn’t accept the answer…twice. God replied, “My grace is sufficient, my power is made perfect in your weakness”. Honestly, I’m not 100% sure what that means…but maybe that’s a place to start.
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