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Why the tears? I don’t know. Why the anger? I don’t know. Why the sadness? I don’t know. Out of nowhere, with no apparent trigger, these things flow. Today on the way to work in my car. Why? I don’t know. And each time they did, I would apologize. To others. To myself, I wouldContinue reading “Find the Feathers…”

For as long as I can remember I have created a story. For everything that happens there is a story behind it. Nothing was random. Nothing was pointless. There was always a story. My sister when she would mock me or mess with me she would get super sarcastic and say “What’s your story?!” IContinue reading “What’s the Story…”

When the girls were little I would tickle them. They would hate it…and love it. It was fantastic. They would beg and beg and scream for me to stop. Finally, I told them there was a magic phrase that if they could figure it out I would always stop tickling them. They would be yellingContinue reading “King James…”

Faith vs Trust. What’s the difference? In full disclosure, I don’t fully know. What I do know is my faith is strong, but my trust is not. I have faith that there is a God who created all of heaven and earth. Much like others have faith that there is no God and that anContinue reading “Faith vs Trust…”

When I was in catholic school one of the treats I used to get to do was to clean the erasers. I would be sent outside to bang the erasers together or against the wall or if it was a good day I was allowed to use the vacuum to clean the erasers. Chalk flyingContinue reading “Clean the erasers…”

My caddie was standing next to me as I was deciding what club to pick. He was figuring out the yardage. How far to the flag. He turns to me and says, “106 yards”. I look at him like he’s crazy and say “shoot it again, it’s way more than 106 yards”. He says, “No,Continue reading “106 yards…”

Life is a bad experience right now. I spent time on my daughter’s college campus this week and had to wear a mask everywhere and took it off to drink a bottle of water and a security guard was on me like ugly on ape. (my dad’s old saying) It’s as if I’m everyone’s “enemy”Continue reading “Enough is enough…”

Anyone else feel like one of those dogs with a shock collar that lives inside the invisible fence?

I was disappointed when TCU lost last weekend. (I need to get used to that disappointment) I was disappointed when our annual guys trip to Cal got cancelled. I am disappointed in the decisions of the governors of late and the general public’s blind willingness to give up our freedoms. (it really triggers my traumaContinue reading “Princess Bride”

I sent this update to a friend recently. They thought I should post it. Here you go… It has been 213 days since this journey began.  It was as dark a time as I’ve ever thought existed.  A lot has happened in that relatively short amount of time.  Some things have changed and some thingsContinue reading “An Update…”